The Gods of Sobriety

Had an awesome meeting. It was the 12&12 group. We read a chapter about one of the steps and then shared about it. Tonight was the 3rd Step.

Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care

of God as we understood Him.

I was the first person to share. There was a time when I would have said, "Hold on. I'm not turning my will over to anyone or anything." Lately, though, I've been opening myself up to that higher power. Especially after my hold-up experience, because I honestly feel that there was divine intervention at work. I've rediscovered prayer too. Slowly. I'm excited to explore my spirituality further and develop that relationship.

That step, I think, sometimes scares off potentially recovering addicts because they view it as trying to get you into religion. Not at all. "Higher Power" is now used more often. A guiding force in your life that is stronger than you. Krishna, Allah, Shiva, Odin.... Zeus. They sometimes say in meetings that even a doorknob would work. I don't buy that one. I know a lady who is about to start using her ancestors as a higher power. I'll stick to God as I understand him. And I will be working to understand him.

Anyways.... I know I posted an entry just a few hours ago. Wanted to write a bit about what I picked up in my meeting, though.

And I finally have a Sunday off, so I will be attending church.